We are what we are, Are we?

Chicks Chicks Chicks .. out of all kinds ..the confused , the pretty , the dumb , the independent , the smart .. the bold, the boyish kinds ... there is one genre which spans over all the other .. "The Bitch". She is the one who knows it all . She knows when he likes her .. she knows when he needs her .. she knows when he absolutely loves her and she knows when he'll do anything for her. So the question is why does she act so innocent and stupid all the time ? He is probably under the notion that he is making her fall in love with him ... but what the poor little dog doesn't know is that she is the one pulling the strings. She is the one messing up his head, heart and his life. She is pretending when she says "I don't know why you would think I liked you"..she's pretending when she says "Don't be so nice to me all the time.." and definitely pretending when she says "you soooo understand me" coz she knows for sure he is head over heels ..truly madly deeply in love and would fulfil any unrealistic want when asked for! All we girls need is a little bit a attention ..let me not generalize .. some of us need a hell lotta attention.I agree I am girl and I am probably pissing off a lotta others my kind. But my point here is .. Playing with hearts has become our strength which some of us are really proud of. But should we consider ourselves stronger than men coz we can get them where we want ? We can manipulate them, tease them, mess them up and throw them when done. Is that what we stand for ? I want to turn this around. Its hard for me not to believe I can get any guy I really want..but the method is just very unethical.

Signed
A proud Woman

The Big V

De day, the symbol of "Martyrdom"... no really it really started of as a day for the martyr ... little that they know, that centuries later people will actually keep up the spirit and swear to die for love and succumb to martyrdom. Anyway being a hopeless romantic how can I let go of an opportunity like this to make this day worth dying for. You'll be surprised to know I had a date for de day ... two weeks prior which I declined. And the day arrived and I had nothing special planned for myself. I mean I really didn't feel the need to. It started of as an "Voluntary trip to office" ...and followed by a single lunch at Sweet Chariot. I met her in the evening .. hoping it would be just a girls day out. Coz the last thing I needed was a guy I would need to be nice and cute for ! but he came along with her and it turned out to be kinda cool coz he is equally sarcastic as I am. Though I think there is something cooking between them :). We were at brigade road..one should have seen da place .. there were protests, police and swarms of people all decked up .. walking in pairs and intertwined hands. I don't detest it ..its just a lil too much love for me.. you know like to the extreme, like in hindi movies where the girl goes against her parents and the father hires da villain to kill the hero and there is police and everything. But I like it subtle and less loud coz if you need to dress it up like that it just seems untrue. Well the night was spent in watching mushy movies .. sweet home alabama, pretty women, serendipity .. only to reassure myself that when people come together, they stay together.. they come home to each other every night .. even if I sleep alone I wanna know all of it is true.

Matching Matching

What factor decides that clothes match ... why cant brown shoes go with a blue top ?? Look at it .. they just feel wrong together. Something like he dating her Or Halwa with ice-cream (which does taste good by the way!!). Who said that black and white are universal colors. I mean graphically speaking its true that they have the min and max RGB values and variations in them coz zillions colors ...but seriously why do I always have to buy a black pair of flats and think to myself ... ah yes it'll go with everything. How did I come to that conclusion !! I know for a fact that I still wouldn't get out there wearing something that doesn't match .. coz I have totally submitted to this feeling of discomfort if I'd do otherwise .. but do we need to change the way we think ? Am I incapable of thinking out of the box even when I know for sure that there is something out there ? I feel a lil orthodox and stupid. I mean, as long as it doesn't harm anyone right, except my poor brown shoes feel a lil lonely on the days I wear blue, red and grey!

Signed
Brown shoes Woman

This isnt Goodbye

Dear Mr.Broken Heart,

"I want love that is impossible..a man like me so irresponsible" in words of elton john.. my fav video with robert downey jr...though the song is kinda about drug abuse .. but that's beside the point .. So are u greedy for love? Are you willing to take chances .. are you ready to risk ? How badly do you really want it.. do you feel alone even when your surrounded by people .. or rather you wanna be left alone coz you wanna know , that you still have it in you to wanna be with someone and give it your all. I love to love .. I love to be happy and I love the fact I can use the word love and not get sick of it. Oh yes I do live in my fairy tale world but its not always that bright and colorful you know. To make something perfect you need time , patience and courage. I have all of that but just the one I love is not here with me. When you have to say "goodbye" to something you hold oh so dearly .. how hard is it for you? How hard is it to know that your gonna be miserable for time to come and that you need to start over or may be settle for something less! Now imagine doing it a hundred times and knowing that its killing you inside but you still have to put on a happy face coz people just don't wanna let you be. Yes, it happened to me ...a thousand goodbyes of the thing I love the most and sometimes when I sit alone in my room, I can still hear him, the 'Strums' ring tone of my Apple IPhone ring in my head. tanatanating tanatanatanating ...

goodbye Siemens c25, goodbye Nokia 8250 , goodbye Nokia 6100 , its not goodbye for you my dear, my Apple IPhone
I miss you and remember that I will love you forever.

Yours,
Jopo

Right side of the bed.

So you had a little bump on the way .. you thought things were going the way you wanted until that one day .. your calculations went horribly wrong. What did you do ? Felt bad about yourself.. cribbed about why God why did this happen to me!! Did you feel like you didn't deserve it, but it happened to you anyway. Do you wake every single day knowing that "your invincible" .. that bad, evil and ugly things never happen to you. Atleast I do. I thought God himself blessed me with this supernatural power which beats superman, spider man, iron man and hulk. They fought against evil ... and in my case I managed to believe, I conquered it. Now the question is, will you let that one single horrifying wrong day, ruin your belief! To be honest, I was hung up on it for three whole days and it pretty much took all the fun outta me until I decided to take charge. And that day everything went smoothly. I felt like I was on a roll. So was it that I had an extremely bad day followed by an extremely good day. That is highly unlikely. Its all in your head people ...its all in your head .. you thought it was left .. but it was the right side of the bed.

Regards,
Hurt but coping me

Change for good

I had an orange today.

Live

If you wanted to lie .. cheat ... hurt ... break ... do it, do it now before its too late. We live our lives by the rules atleast I know I do. We decide whats right or wrong according to our society. They set the rules .. we follow it. ..Why can they decide when they are not accountable? I got home from bangalore and as per the tradition .. I went down to the jogging track to meet my doggy friends, Bappi, Bappa and Polly ... well Bappi and Bappa came wagging their tails and then "along came polly". He used to be this brown lazy dog ..always sleeping. really always sleeping. This time I saw him .. he was white ..no not coz of hair dye .. but he had aged. His life is so short .. he'll probably pass away the next time I come here... but it made me sad. It made me really sad and I thought "Are WE making the most of it? " For all we know we will all turn like the polly's of the world and pass away .. sleeping away through all the things we could have done. If today you think you should have done something .. which was wrong .. crazy .. or inappropriate . do it. Do it before you have regrets later. Go tell the guy you liked him, go kiss your girlfriend's best friend, apologize to the broken heart , live in with the guy you love, have a one night stand, say yes to the relationship you thought was wrong. Get out of denial and live it the way you want it. Life really is too short .. ma childhood , ma teenage ..all done..and now adulthood ... does that really matter? I get flashes of pretty much everything that I have to do .. a want to revolt back to "being taken for granted", a need to be taken seriously , to quit being the "damsel in distress", to stop saying "pity me pity me", to forget about caring too much and put yourself first.. I think I'll execute it one day ... If that's what it takes to have no regrets then I think we all should.

Signed
Awakened Me

Have you felt anything lately ?

I looked at the pile of dust being accumulated while my maid was still in the process of sweeping the floor. I looked at it aimlessly and then got over that act and continued to get ready for office. It was only a while after, I realized my diamond earing had fallen off .. and then I looked back at the pile of dust hoping I'd find it there .. It had disappeared. The maid had already disposed it all ... Do you ever look at things and you get flashes of scenes that could possibly happen, you choose to ignore and next thing you know ..your regretting it. I somehow get it all the time, I have broken a full bottle of ketchup, got robbed off a cellphone and pretty much anything else that can be broken, stolen, dropped, dis functional or lost.. to this feeling. I used to think I could talk to God ... weird as it may seem .. I really did believe in it ..moreover I trusted it. Each time something flashed and I chose to ignore it ... It became a reality ..as though he was mocking me for not listening carefully. His existence became way clearer and louder with the face of my dad telling me.. "I told you so". Does it happen to you or is it just me and the "chemical locha" in my brain. Still trying to figure out, if its really him .. or my conscience or the countless yellings from my parents , that I have lost confidence in doing anything right the first time. For quite sometime I looked at it as this "Super Natural" power I had. Dunno if you would believe this .. when I was my tomboy kid self, the only reason I was in the cricket team is coz I would plead, pray and beg God to get the batsman out in next three balls. It actually happened ..may be it was our classic team bowler but I always knew I was pulling the strings. Seems rather funny now when I think about it .. but those were the days when you could get away by believing in unicorns and santaclaus..Did you ever feel you made some thing change in your life ... you know, like you knew what would have happened and that you cheated fate. May be it was just your fate to cheat fate...now how would you validate that! I guess life tells you something in its own ways .. whether good or bad that depends..there are signs everywhere.. try listening to them.. you may not have all the answers but you'll be happy to feel that you altered the future.

Signed
Hallucinated me

Karma - Breaking the belief

What goes around, does it really come around ? ... when bad things happen to you .. do you ever think you might have done something wrong to someone before .. Well yesterday I was standing in a queue of this food mart..waiting to be billed. The one ahead of me needed change, well to send "goodness" back in the world and hoping I'd get it back someday ...I gave up all my change. Next thing I know the cashier didn't have any change left for me....for all the good you do. Then again, what goes around, does it really come around? I was sitting at the airport waiting to board .. this chick comes to me and asks me to look after her baggage till she uses the ladies room. I agree, coz you know ..she thought I looked like the trusting type or may be like the dumb type coz she plans to blow up the airport ..I'd like to think otherwise. My flight announcement and I go running without a second thought. I am all settled in my seat when I see her coming right at me..I had just ran off leaving her bag unattended ...for once I was relieved that I didn't leave it, at the mercy of other victims who would die. But the guilt of breaking her trust just kept growing as she took those steps towards me. She went for the seat in front of mine. What a relief .. with a smile of embarrassment I said "I am sorry, did you find your bag?". She smiled back. All settled. So you may think .. her reclining seat was not too much of a recliner, it was broken making it fall right on me. I only realized that when they announced "Please keep your seat upright!" but this seat wouldn't budge. I don't break rules ..so with my seat upright and hers right at my face .. I had a squashed flight to Bombay. I hope you could picture it well ... But you sure cant picture the backache. What goes around, may be it does come around! So what would you do to break the cult? Be nice, always do the right thing ...smile when you get burnt? I believe ... always try to do good , go out of your way .. if its practical . Your heart will let you know, when you did wrong. Don't try to be God, but don't forget to be human. After all this , if you still couldn't break the evil...it would at least make you a better person.

Signed,
A God fearing Woman

If i were a boy

I Swear I'd be a better man.