Busy Experiencing...

Each time I thought of putting an entry ... I chose to live the next moment and surprisingly these chain of happy events have not ended yet... so as to start reliving them through an entry in this blog. I will be back ... I need to finish my homework.

love,
J
p.s. my life has become brand new ... looks like its gonna take some time to be old again .. loving it.

Sucker for Romantic comedies

Falling in love .. over and over and over again .. each time with a different line .. each time sounding to you a little cheesy and cliche but it makes my heart skip a beat. Goose pimples come crawling up and I go sinking into my bed .. I've never felt more cozy.
I can watch a movie like a million times ..right from start ..... just to come to that one part that reassures my faith in love... where the struggle ..the innocence.. the cowardliness ..the desperation.. breaks into something so bold and empowering.. this hope is what keeps me alive. Love.. what a feeling.. its good that they've given it a name coz now I can define what I feel.. I know I have that disease coz I know I suffer from it. It makes me happy .. it makes me lose myself completely to someone who I hope deserves it.. :p
I cant help but relate or relive my life stories through these movies .. and as hopeless as it may sound, I try to find my answers to relationships through them. Now you may think its only a movie and I think so too but it lets me live in this world which is so wonderful.
I know Life is hard ..and I know people are not always nice ... and I know you think I am a complete idiot but this is how I plan to live it .. blindfolded and happy.

P.S. Dont try and wake me up..I'm having a beautiful dream.

Signed,
Cinderella

Seven Deadly Sins

Wrath is consuming my time
Greed not letting me stop mine
Sloth for I shamelessly eat it
Pride coz I have to beat it
Lust that I've overcome
Envy is making me a bum
Gluttony hence all that fat

Ahh been there done that. Nexxttt.

P.S Stay away ... this one bites.

Wake Up Sunshine

He who rises and falls
reaches a new level zero
For the heights were high
and the lows got dimmer

Falling down to earth
cutting through the clouds
no plan A .. no plan B
just the end in sight

He who trusts one
bears the brunt with tears
for no one is no one's
and its only you and your fears

Crippled on the ground
wrapped up with pain
memories so hard to erase
with all the fuzzy lanes.

He who lets down his defenses
not a smart thing to do I say
coz there will be one such foe
who'll take the chance any day

So know yourself and love yourself
coz you live just once
listen to yourself ..and listen deep
give your voice a turn.

They teach us to be kind, they teach us to love
then where does it all go with time
Don't forget to be human, give if you wish..
but in the end its only I,me and mine.

The one who falls, will rise one day
for pain is all said and done
He'll know that trust has no rewards
its like gambling to live and burn.

Signed
Hurt poet

Mee Janhavi Parab boltay!

Truth, Where is the truth? Who'll tell me the truth ? Did the leaders really write history? Or was it so craftily altered that the truth passed away with the martyrs. A classic example, Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi, man of principles, a great leader, father of the nation ..now that's what the teacher told me. I recently uploaded some pictures on Facebook of Mani Bhavan, where Gandhiji resided everytime he visited Mumbai. The feeling of being a proud Indian had surfaced each time I scanned through the portraits and letters signed M K Gandhi. The experience felt real and touching. I really thought that people would share the same feeling, but their remarks were astonishing. People hate him, they really do hate him... now where did all this arise. So much animosity towards a hero. Was their opinion based on facts... did they really know what they were talking about.. did I miss a lecture in my history class where all this was covered! I was not ready to get dis-heartened yet, I wasn't going down without validating my beliefs.

And then my friend Google and I went on a trip ... trip down the history lane. Going through videos(by Gopal Godse himself), Nathuram Godge's speech at trial, FIR reports, blogs, surveys, articles, movies.. for almost a week. I watched "Me Nathuram Godse Boltoy" a Marathi play which shows his point of view as to why he killed Gandhiji. You end up believing him in the end but I was still unsure to let go of my paragons.

This whole exercise was to have an opinion about the leader, to take a stand. Sadly, the information seemed too ambiguous to me. Did Gandhiji say "Hai Ram" while he was dying .. or was it "ohhh"(cry of pain) or as the FIR Report says it was "Ram Ram" or the book says "Hai Ra..Hai Ra". History couldn't even get that right. Did Gandhiji want partition, the movie says he was reluctant but people say he was pro-partition!! Did anyone see us all living as ONE country if the partition didn't happen..Hindu- Muslim bhai bhai. Really? Why couldn't we just give the man a break and consider the circumstances and the pressure he was facing.. Poor old man. On the other hand the fight about Non-violence...what is that? Now according to Martin Luther King,Jr and few others.. it worked. But wouldn't the British mind killing Indians for another 100 years, if it weren't for the World War II. So what ..now we thank Hitler. Is he our real hero? And then there is the Khilafat movement, the 55 crores, the support for Muslims, hurting hindu sentiments by calling Swami Shraddananda's muslim killer, a patriot, making Nehru the PM and trillion other things that are repeatedly remarked.

Its breaking my heart to face new facts every single day, and bit by bit.. I realize that the truth has been altered, so I decided to stop my fanatic search. So many people..so many opinions .. so much aggression and for what.. he is dead now. He didn't ask to be on the notes or as road names.. Please stop swearing at him ... he did die for the country you know..he made sacrifices ..they all did. He had the power, he lead the people .. Dandi march, boycott, strikes an then people died for the freedom struggle..for the country ..for us ..must be something he did right.

He was only human, so let him rest in peace. Nathuram Godse saheb had an opinion, I truly respect it .. but you weren't there.. you didn't face it, you didn't feel it, you didn't fight for it. Sit at home, watch TV and have a sound sleep. I stand to fail ..to have an opinion. I don't want to have one. So stop jumping at me and telling me what to believe. I believe in Truth and it doesn't look like its out there.

This topic is not open for any comments about Gandhiji. Enough is enough.

His Intelligence Personified

Hi .... hi ... meet him..this is ____.. he has a MBA degree in General Management from the University of Denver, Colorado, a Master of Science degree in Computer Science from George Mason University, Fairfax, Virginia, and a Bachelor of Engineering degree in Computer Science and Engineering from the University of Mysore, India. And also has a Juris doctorate degree. He speaks more than 5 languages and is currently learning the third font of Japanese.. loves to play golf and has traveled around the world and is settled in US.. Meet her ... she can drive. And I sink into my seat. I have never been nervous when it comes to meetings coz I usually know what people wanna hear. But this was different. There was no common level in between to strike up a conversation, no common ground except for the fact that he is a maharashtrian.

I have heard so much about him but truth be told he didn't know anything about me .. but there was nothing to know. And the MOM is as follows:-
One: free time is not sleeping time and watching TV time. Its reading, learning, writing, exploring.
Two: love a sport or something that is physical.
Three: No carbs , no sugar, and exercise
Four: Japanese think too much and try to put themselves in others shoes first ..they do everything to the extreme.. even porn
Five: Activate your taste buds
Six: Travel as much as you can coz the airline company is soon gonna start caring about losing money
Seven: Whatever people say, Art Of Living course works.
Eight: The french serve good food.
Nine: Indian roads can have huge stones placed right in middle of the road so watch while you drive
Ten: If the food taste good, chances are its unhealthy

And a nice chit chat conversation with him, my boss and his wife. He mentioned about a book. A book that made him cry and later we went to a store near by and he insisted to buy me that book. I was excited at the same time it was weird to take something from someone you've met for the first time. But he didn't seem new at all. I told him if he wanted to buy me that book, he has to sign it. And he did.
I know you're wondering which book it was and I wont be selfish to keep the name to myself. Its called A Fine Balance by Rohinton Mistry. I met a person who was kind, who didnt make me feel like this big owing to his background. He made me wanna become somebody. All in all a great day

A lil smarter than yesterday
Me

Curiosity killed my cat

shhh no one is suppose to know ... please dont discuss this with anyone and there it goes round and round until the person herself is confronted of her own secret .... being asked.. I heard something, is it true? Why are people so incapable of keeping a secret. Agreed you cant keep it to yourself coz your stomach aches .. and you told your best friend who also has a boyfriend..who she apparently cant hide anything from, even at the cost of your 'secret'. So only two of them know whew! But the boyfriend has a best friend who is also friends with the only girl who is NOT suppose to know. So, what did you learn children? Nothing .. Dont go home ... she is right now waiting at your doorstep and dont mistake what's in her hand for a garland.
Every single person on this revolving planet has a secret... tina bina ..reena meena seema.. rinky chinky ..everyone. The funny thing about this concept is ... while people are busy trying to hide something ... they dont mind poking their noses in someone elses life. Why else would you think people would be remotely interested in watching 'The Moment Of Truth' or if I can rightly say the moment you're stripped down.. When I watched this series with awe and disgust .. I thought to myself would any indian ...any sane indian do something like this for money. Indians are so controversial, diplomatic, introvert and so used to doing things behind the scenes that no one would ever volunteer for such an obnoxious serial. And bang there we have 'sach ka samna'. God bless their souls coz money is a waste if you lose your peeps. And whoever said money is everything needs to do a reality check.
Circling back to the point where we started this vicious circle ..Gossip is heaven .... I gossip .. didn't come across anyone who doesn't. But is there anything such as healthy gossip ... or harmless secret. .. you're putting yourself off da hook if you think so. The truth remains we want to know .. we love to know ... we are bothered .. we are curious human beings .. and this is exactly what killed my cat.

Put a ring on it

Talking about our boys II men.. not a boy not yet a man. lol... its funny how we girls can discuss boys endlessly while they are busy in some parallel universe talking about cars or cricket for that matter. News flash: Girl and girl and girl makes a helluva conversation about boys. Eaves dropping into a slumber party: you'll often hear this.. he is not ready yet..he says he needs time to think it over...he needs to first stand on his feet ..he loves me like crazy but he cant go against his parents...yada yada yada. yap yap yap. And we girls lose sleep over it. Though I don't think anyone should go against their parents but come on... take a step back and look at all this.
This is what we think of all this ...I cant expect him to be ready .. we are of the same age you know..and girls mature faster (atleast we girls think so)..if he needs time, I say he'll come around .. he needs to be independent ..aww how mature.. he loves me * 10(exaggeration) .. he is a homely boy. Ya rite ...homely my foot..and my favourite .. "I dont know" ... can we talk about this later.

So what factor decides if he is just that into you?

However cliche this would sound ...if you love them set them free if they come back kick them and keep them.

Happy

I am a happy person... I don't have to now build a world around me to make it seem happy. I change things .. I control my mind .. I love myself ... and I feel good ... not exactly the way I look right now .. coz it needs a lotta work plus I am 2 kilos overweight... Things don't need to fall in place anymore ... though few things already have. I am a happy person, I smile.. and the hazy glass just gets clearer and clearer. The happy bug has bit me really hard.

So I made a list of Happy thoughts (Happiness quotient set at equal level for all):-

1). Doggy .... a big , huge, furry dog ... who is absolutely out of hand.

2). Dancing ... shaking every inch of my body and sleeping with body parts aching.. reminding me I still have them intact.

3). Loving ...

4). Blogging... even though I have crappy things to write about

5). Friends ... my close peeps ... who know me, get me and love me

6). My green room ... the memories I have with it ..

7). Madhuri... I get goose bumps or rather every tinkly feeling ..when I watch her.

8). Animals .. all of them except snakes,lizards,bats and insects.

9). That pair of jeans ... that fits me amazingly

10). Talking to my parents and my brother... who are very far right now

11). My nephew ahaan

12). Greenery ... a path with trees on either side ..leading to a fountain ... birds and people

13). Mornings .. I'm a morning person

14). Saturdays... holiday the next day too.

15). Pictures of me ... cant help it .I was deprived of them from childhood.

16). Garfield

Woah .. not done with the list yet ... will probably list it out in my head ...

Have a happy day... its not unrealistic .. you really can be happy for a whole day and days to come ... its all about how you want it to be..

Signed,

Merry me

Nothing I do can make it right

Shit happens... they love you and then they hate you ... strictly in this order. So what changes in this period...you loved them and then you left them.. thats what changes. You deserve it .. you're aware of it and you very well know if you wanna stay friends then you're just rubbing it in. So STOP. If you cant deal with people hating you .. stop making them. Why the hell am I talking like its some random third person .. its ME. My urge to make people like me and keep everyone happy backfired. ... BIG time. So currently just shutting up and minding my own business.~~~tralalalala~~~ -> nice ..who me ? rubbish.