Manic Sunday

Its happens each time ... every time I think I want to just chill out and sit at home on a Sunday... the evening just takes all the fun outta me. I get grumpy and emotional and I don't know ... Brainsick. People get the Monday blues ... but trust me I am more than happy to be at work on Mondays. Well not nowadays ..coz I don't have much to do. But still nothing can beat da manic Sunday. I don't even know why people hate Monday mornings ... its the Sunday evenings that are more distressing.

I scanned through my phonebook ... and thought of all the possible friends I could call and share my gloominess with .. I called her .. she sleeps at 10 and she switches off her phone even on her own birthday so chances are .. she doesn't care.. then I called him .. he was out. He hates it when I call her before him, coz it clearly gives away the hierarchy .. and trust me this whole non-availability.. happens every Sunday. Its like everyone knows how to handle this dreadful day except me.

Oh look what time it is ... its time to catch some Z's.. ha finally .. It'd be dawn tomorrow and I'll probably be blogging about 'Monday Blues'. in case I don't .. then I made it through.

p.s. I shall leave you to savour a song from Annie - a musical. It's beautiful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yop62wQH498&feature=related

Tomorrow

When I'm stuck with a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And grin,
And say,
Oh

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may

Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I love ya
Tomorrow

You're only
A day away

Is Skater Boy really the Hero..

He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
now he's a super star
slammin on his guitar
does your pretty face see what he's worth?

For some twisted reason I relate to this song. Its about this guy fallen head over heels for this bonnie lass and she being this self obsessed bitch thinks he is a loser... And years later .. he makes it big and she is the one in the crowd..looking at him ..up there.. thinking to herself ... if only.....! It somehow reminds me of all the guys I have jilted and scorned .. I know they may be over it by now... busy making something of themselves and I wish them luck.. Now I dont want to sound like a 'Diva' but I seriously wish I knew another way to make peace with them. But I guess there is no sweeter way .. now is there?

The thing that I believe .. makes me wiser now is that ..you can love who you want .... however the person may be .. you love them for them. Any rockstar would just not do it... so stick to him...stand by him .. coz he makes you happy.. the guys who you dumped or dumped you ... there is a reason they are not a part of your life. Dont be afraid to love .. if not him there will be another ... but still .. give it your all!

p.s. there is always an option. ... (though this is not the moral of the story.)

Conclusion: I don't blame the cold hearted bitch....how could she foresee.. that the lousy skater boy would in future ..be so successful!!! Now wouldnt she be stupid enough to marry a loser whom she doesnt love ... She might as well marry the boring software engineer .. who she loves so deeply..be knocked up and sit at home watching the rockstar on tv and say .. "we used to go out!"