In a world where there are makeups and breakups at every corner of the road, what does it mean to give in... to walk right round the corner..just to make someone happy. Who has the breakpoint in a relationship?
The dynamics of relationships baffle me completely. Do we always keep turning tables ... like taking turns to be mad at each other or giving a cold shoulder. How much time are you ready to invest.. just to stay angry with someone and try really hard to absolutely not let your emotions take over. Does this mean .... every reason you get to be to be angry lets you have the breakpoint ????
If you ask me .. it really consumes a lot of time and sucks all the energy outta me. At one point I am begging for drama and the other ... I'm just glad that life is monotonous and fight-free. Boy do I like to do things to the extreme. With me everything is extreme.... xtreme emotions ... xtreme love ... xtreme work. The only thing I lose out on is ... xtreme fights.
I admit... I am a sucker when it comes to taking a stand ...fighting for what I believe in... I end up feeling I am blowing things out of proportion for no apparent reason. I feel really apologetic.. however lame that sounds ... I cant win a fight with someone I really care about. I always go back. Gosh it hurts even to admit it.
I was always taught to dissolve my ego and now I feel I 'm losing my self respect. I need a reason to stand up again ... for myself and for every fight I've lost..the ones I gave in just to not lose someone I love. If any more ... I'm just gonna end up losing myself.
Lost
me.
The dynamics of relationships baffle me completely. Do we always keep turning tables ... like taking turns to be mad at each other or giving a cold shoulder. How much time are you ready to invest.. just to stay angry with someone and try really hard to absolutely not let your emotions take over. Does this mean .... every reason you get to be to be angry lets you have the breakpoint ????
If you ask me .. it really consumes a lot of time and sucks all the energy outta me. At one point I am begging for drama and the other ... I'm just glad that life is monotonous and fight-free. Boy do I like to do things to the extreme. With me everything is extreme.... xtreme emotions ... xtreme love ... xtreme work. The only thing I lose out on is ... xtreme fights.
I admit... I am a sucker when it comes to taking a stand ...fighting for what I believe in... I end up feeling I am blowing things out of proportion for no apparent reason. I feel really apologetic.. however lame that sounds ... I cant win a fight with someone I really care about. I always go back. Gosh it hurts even to admit it.
I was always taught to dissolve my ego and now I feel I 'm losing my self respect. I need a reason to stand up again ... for myself and for every fight I've lost..the ones I gave in just to not lose someone I love. If any more ... I'm just gonna end up losing myself.
Lost
me.
