I Heart NY

Yeah Yeah I live in New York ... but you really cant compare cuse and nyc. Its New York City!!! I've been there like three times but this time was different. I gathered the courage to travel alone in the metro trains .. and roam around on my own ... looking at buildings .. going shopping etc etc. So here is a list of things ...

I love about New York City-

1) Tall Buildings

2) escape from my life in cuse

3) metro trains

4) easy layout... avenues and streets..

5) street performers

6) city that never sleeps.. people everywhere.. (I miss bombay)

7) lights at times square

8) central park

9) walking to any and every place I can

10) little italy

11) fashion in NY

12) Everything that has I Heart NY

13) Apartment buildings with a stairway that leads to the door buzzer

14) doggies wearing cute clothes

15) songs that have New York in it...

16) the magic that pulls every soul to it..

17) new jersey .. the place where we get our indian grocery

I hate about New York City

1) every single day is a struggle

2) expensive as hell

3) small apartments

4) crazy traffic

5) the hype..

wow ... cant think of anymore. So the verdict is out .. I Heart NY.

p.s. I had the most awesome time there. I relived every movie scene I've missed out on... which in my world is the best thing that could happen to me... All that is left is ice skating rink in central park and a few may get added to the list. :)

Newyorker,

Me

I know where the coin disappeared!

Question: Wouldn't it be awesome to know exactly how the coin disappeared in thin air!! Answer: AWE....SOME. I was 13 years old..when my daddy decided to try his hand at being a magician. He performed at family parties.. just for fun.. and everyone loved him. Daddy's little girl was so proud of him. I watched with amazement as he said... abracadabra..and coin disappears from that tiny little box. I wanted to know ..... I was dying to know how its done.
But the magic box was kept hidden away in the storage place above the cupboard... supposedly away from my reach. But curiosity is evil ... and plus it wasn't so hard to just pull out that magic box. BIG MISTAKE. As I pulled out that coin disappearing box and looked closer... the coin was in there... it was always in there. Damn it. I couldn't stop there... one by one I unraveled the whole act my dad puts up just to make a coin disappear... or to pull out colorful flowers outta his hand...or to pick the right card from the deck.
Every time I discovered the way the trick was done... the magical experience died further and further...until I knew every trick in that box and that was the end of my magical experience.
Question: Wouldn't it be awesome to know exactly how the coin disappeared in thin air!!
Answer: SUCKS.

Curious Cat
Me

The sun will rise on my side....

Dislocated elbows ... little bowed legs.. pigs nose... thunder thighs.. canine teeth and bushy hair. yup that' s me. But behind that extra fat and weird tantrums there is hope. Hope that one day will be my day.... and not just a relentless effort of making it mine.

Hopeful,
Me

Phew!!!

Two done ....One to go. Feels like just yesterday I was freaking out about taking these three together .. and here I am ..almost done. Hoping I didn't screw them up. Ten minutes to 12 and I'll be officially done with 2 courses. An exam on thursday and a tech paper on friday ..yipppppiie. Cant wait for vacation time. Everyone's going India .. I miss india... I wanna go I wanna go .... but I'm sure I'll have fun in NY ..so not complaining. I'm sure gonna miss them. :(

3 minutes to go ... but whose counting!

Studious,
Me

How old do you think I am!!!

No one says it to my face .... But I am certain I write like a 12 year old. ... like .. my name is ... I like watching cartoons. My favorite character is tom and jerry. oh ..sorry .. my favorite characters are tom and jerry. I love my parents. My dogs name is beth. I love my dog.

I cant help it if I think in simple english. The flowery words just don't come to me. I know I need to improve my vocabulary ..but I do just fine as it is. Do people think in simple English and then put big words just to sound cool. If they do ...then I don't have so much time to revamp every single word. I love writing ...its good to know I'll have something to look back on when I'm old and gray.

kiddy
me

Go Litter in your House

I HATE destroying public property. Hate it..Hate it..Hate it..I wonder what mental satisfaction it brings to carve names on monuments ... only to never come to the same place ever again.

Funny thing happened to me when I was in the 8th grade.. I was coming down in the lift with my girl friends and for some reason they had red sketch pens with them. They started doodling J loves ?.. R loves A ..yada yada yada with hearts all over the place. Now this I swear to God happened ... I tried to tell them not to do it. I felt helpless coz it was four against one..I don't remember what happened later.. all I remember is everyone blamed me for it. I was like .. Why me ??? I was always in the center of such drama. I think I was a lil gullible then .. not that much has changed over the years. Still working on it though. Good progress.

A recent incident similar to this one occurred. Some idiot wrote something in the uni's lift. It was written in pencil so it was easy to erase. I took the initiative to do it. It felt good. It was like erasing the bitter memory from my childhood.

Language vs Thought

I talk in my head all the time.. should I ..shouldn't I... could I .. wont I!! But I always wondered if I thought in English .. or were my thoughts free from language. Well as per me they are .. its a sequential activity.. you first think and then put a language to it.
It must have been obvious to some .. but to someone like me whose brain tires of thinking .. its a good inquiry. The process possibly happens so fast then we don't realize it. I might not understand how exactly the brain works ... but I feel this goes on in my brain.

Talkative,
Me

p.s. I am not as self involved and deluded as I sound to be.

Horrible Habit

I have the most annoying habit ever ... biting off the skin around my nails. I've noticed that, I only do that while I'm studying ..and am really really into it. I don't realize until I bite a large chunk of skin and it starts bleeding. Disgusting eh! I hate it too .. not sure how to rid of it. My grandmother used to tell ma mom... put nail polish on her fingers.. that'll keep her from biting her nails. But she failed to realize that nails were never the problem :( ... Looking at ma nails right now, I desperately need a manicure... trust me..I do. If only I could afford one. sigh!!

Bad Girl ... bad bad girl
Me

my Fear

I don't think a term is coined for what I have .... phobia of breaking my bone. And I'm not talking about breaking my bones by falling off the first floor ... hell.. everyone should be a lil scared of that. When I'm sitting in a chair and I rest my hand on the handle... stretched outwards ..I get sudden visions of someone falling on it and breaking my elbow. Just thinking of that gives me the shivers and I retract in a second. Weird. :(

Bone head,
me

Revelation

Living each day to discover how I can surprise myself ... turns out I do. "Yesterday is History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift, That's why it's called the Present" quoted by master oogway. I admit, I thought it was cheesy at first but it makes so much sense.
The following sentence might not make sense to everyone but it does to me.
I am more of a chocolate milk kinda person than a coffee person. This ..I would HATE to admit since I've been drinking coffee like forever. But I loveee cold chocolate milk. What can I say.. I am loco about choco.

Choco Lover,
Me

Who talks and who listens???

In a world where there are makeups and breakups at every corner of the road, what does it mean to give in... to walk right round the corner..just to make someone happy. Who has the breakpoint in a relationship?
The dynamics of relationships baffle me completely. Do we always keep turning tables ... like taking turns to be mad at each other or giving a cold shoulder. How much time are you ready to invest.. just to stay angry with someone and try really hard to absolutely not let your emotions take over. Does this mean .... every reason you get to be to be angry lets you have the breakpoint ????
If you ask me .. it really consumes a lot of time and sucks all the energy outta me. At one point I am begging for drama and the other ... I'm just glad that life is monotonous and fight-free. Boy do I like to do things to the extreme. With me everything is extreme.... xtreme emotions ... xtreme love ... xtreme work. The only thing I lose out on is ... xtreme fights.
I admit... I am a sucker when it comes to taking a stand ...fighting for what I believe in... I end up feeling I am blowing things out of proportion for no apparent reason. I feel really apologetic.. however lame that sounds ... I cant win a fight with someone I really care about. I always go back. Gosh it hurts even to admit it.
I was always taught to dissolve my ego and now I feel I 'm losing my self respect. I need a reason to stand up again ... for myself and for every fight I've lost..the ones I gave in just to not lose someone I love. If any more ... I'm just gonna end up losing myself.

Lost
me.

And this is why I love America

He announces, "bus 240 going downtown thru route 50" and a visually impaired woman climbs in. God bless America for passing the ADA law which makes transportation provisions for the disabled.
The concept of the kneeling bus helps easy access for wheelchairs. I would say it sorta gives a sense of power and accomplishment to someone who didn't believe it was possible. I cant even get myself to think how it would be possible in India. Being able to go wherever your heart desires without feeling crippled.

Every day on my way to college, the bus stops at Loretto..its a home for the aged. A bunch of oldies get in .. they can barely walk .. they absolutely amaze me. Last week a golden retriever(guide dog) got in with his master. It sat right under her seat. Cute ??? It was more than that. The responsibility of guiding a human being was just wow. This just doesn't limit to public transportation. Its everywhere ... the concept of automatic doors and restrooms for the handicapped. If only my grandmother were here.. she would have loved to go around like this.
Then again, it may seem a little sad that the oldies have no one to drive them around. But think again ... they didn't do it for their parents and they don't expect it to be done for them. Moreover, they love being on their own. Its their freedom and they completely use it. I love these free spirited Americans. . and I love America.

Good to be back

Here I am .... back to writing. I thought the change of template will bring back my inspiration..Should it be a significant post ??? I don't think so. I've wasted all this time so that I could write something important ...something amazing. Now I don't remember how I felt on my first day of grad school .... I don't remember how I felt when I went to party for the first time in USA ... I don't remember how my ass felt when I fell on ice .. oh wait I remember that part.. it was numb. But I still don't remember what I felt about the winter ..or the spring.
And now all I know is ... I am obsessed with my nails. I don't care about putting on those extra pounds and I am going through a lot of emotional crisis.

p.s. back to blogging about absolutely insignificant things.

Lost it

Firstly I swear I don't get time to write ..... I really try to.. I pretty much have so many things to write about .. Each time something happens and I feel I should write about it on my blog. But it just doesn't make it to the computer. Now that my inspiration is gone, I am not sure if I can write anymore. The words just dont come to me. Sigh.

Waiting till it comes back

P.S. Winter Season is almost over ... so I guess its time to take out the snowflakes effect from my blog... I survived through it and boy am I glad. Looking out from my window I see the ducks swimming in the pond and having a good time. Birds chirping and flying away. Dog owners walking their dogs. I see people(trust me you long for it) .. jogging, walking etc...It makes me really happy.

Being Ethical

10/10 to do the assignment on my own. I feel rewarded. Its weird how the education system works here.... they sure do keep you loaded with stuff ... so If I need to do this the right way ... then I need to get back to studying for my quiz tomm. Bye see you later.

p.s. I am glad I am honest..

Janhavi Parab
Grad Student

Busy Experiencing...

Each time I thought of putting an entry ... I chose to live the next moment and surprisingly these chain of happy events have not ended yet... so as to start reliving them through an entry in this blog. I will be back ... I need to finish my homework.

love,
J
p.s. my life has become brand new ... looks like its gonna take some time to be old again .. loving it.