Have you felt anything lately ?

I looked at the pile of dust being accumulated while my maid was still in the process of sweeping the floor. I looked at it aimlessly and then got over that act and continued to get ready for office. It was only a while after, I realized my diamond earing had fallen off .. and then I looked back at the pile of dust hoping I'd find it there .. It had disappeared. The maid had already disposed it all ... Do you ever look at things and you get flashes of scenes that could possibly happen, you choose to ignore and next thing you know ..your regretting it. I somehow get it all the time, I have broken a full bottle of ketchup, got robbed off a cellphone and pretty much anything else that can be broken, stolen, dropped, dis functional or lost.. to this feeling. I used to think I could talk to God ... weird as it may seem .. I really did believe in it ..moreover I trusted it. Each time something flashed and I chose to ignore it ... It became a reality ..as though he was mocking me for not listening carefully. His existence became way clearer and louder with the face of my dad telling me.. "I told you so". Does it happen to you or is it just me and the "chemical locha" in my brain. Still trying to figure out, if its really him .. or my conscience or the countless yellings from my parents , that I have lost confidence in doing anything right the first time. For quite sometime I looked at it as this "Super Natural" power I had. Dunno if you would believe this .. when I was my tomboy kid self, the only reason I was in the cricket team is coz I would plead, pray and beg God to get the batsman out in next three balls. It actually happened ..may be it was our classic team bowler but I always knew I was pulling the strings. Seems rather funny now when I think about it .. but those were the days when you could get away by believing in unicorns and santaclaus..Did you ever feel you made some thing change in your life ... you know, like you knew what would have happened and that you cheated fate. May be it was just your fate to cheat fate...now how would you validate that! I guess life tells you something in its own ways .. whether good or bad that depends..there are signs everywhere.. try listening to them.. you may not have all the answers but you'll be happy to feel that you altered the future.

Signed
Hallucinated me