Put a ring on it

Talking about our boys II men.. not a boy not yet a man. lol... its funny how we girls can discuss boys endlessly while they are busy in some parallel universe talking about cars or cricket for that matter. News flash: Girl and girl and girl makes a helluva conversation about boys. Eaves dropping into a slumber party: you'll often hear this.. he is not ready yet..he says he needs time to think it over...he needs to first stand on his feet ..he loves me like crazy but he cant go against his parents...yada yada yada. yap yap yap. And we girls lose sleep over it. Though I don't think anyone should go against their parents but come on... take a step back and look at all this.
This is what we think of all this ...I cant expect him to be ready .. we are of the same age you know..and girls mature faster (atleast we girls think so)..if he needs time, I say he'll come around .. he needs to be independent ..aww how mature.. he loves me * 10(exaggeration) .. he is a homely boy. Ya rite ...homely my foot..and my favourite .. "I dont know" ... can we talk about this later.

So what factor decides if he is just that into you?

However cliche this would sound ...if you love them set them free if they come back kick them and keep them.

Happy

I am a happy person... I don't have to now build a world around me to make it seem happy. I change things .. I control my mind .. I love myself ... and I feel good ... not exactly the way I look right now .. coz it needs a lotta work plus I am 2 kilos overweight... Things don't need to fall in place anymore ... though few things already have. I am a happy person, I smile.. and the hazy glass just gets clearer and clearer. The happy bug has bit me really hard.

So I made a list of Happy thoughts (Happiness quotient set at equal level for all):-

1). Doggy .... a big , huge, furry dog ... who is absolutely out of hand.

2). Dancing ... shaking every inch of my body and sleeping with body parts aching.. reminding me I still have them intact.

3). Loving ...

4). Blogging... even though I have crappy things to write about

5). Friends ... my close peeps ... who know me, get me and love me

6). My green room ... the memories I have with it ..

7). Madhuri... I get goose bumps or rather every tinkly feeling ..when I watch her.

8). Animals .. all of them except snakes,lizards,bats and insects.

9). That pair of jeans ... that fits me amazingly

10). Talking to my parents and my brother... who are very far right now

11). My nephew ahaan

12). Greenery ... a path with trees on either side ..leading to a fountain ... birds and people

13). Mornings .. I'm a morning person

14). Saturdays... holiday the next day too.

15). Pictures of me ... cant help it .I was deprived of them from childhood.

16). Garfield

Woah .. not done with the list yet ... will probably list it out in my head ...

Have a happy day... its not unrealistic .. you really can be happy for a whole day and days to come ... its all about how you want it to be..

Signed,

Merry me

Nothing I do can make it right

Shit happens... they love you and then they hate you ... strictly in this order. So what changes in this period...you loved them and then you left them.. thats what changes. You deserve it .. you're aware of it and you very well know if you wanna stay friends then you're just rubbing it in. So STOP. If you cant deal with people hating you .. stop making them. Why the hell am I talking like its some random third person .. its ME. My urge to make people like me and keep everyone happy backfired. ... BIG time. So currently just shutting up and minding my own business.~~~tralalalala~~~ -> nice ..who me ? rubbish.

Da Dark cloud just passes by..

I know I know it was a month ago ... some random Sunday, when I was feeling low and depressed and I blogged about the non-happenings of my life. But since I was away ... I was off doing things .. feeling things ... loving things ...and hating them.

I wanted to write a blog about how I moved into this magnificent three bedroom house and how I love the huge hall and the huge balcony and my cool room ..all of it for not a penny extra. It was a freaking steal .. I really feel bad for the owner. He is this maharashtrian guy from pune ... I tell you ..we maharashtrians are service class people. We just cant think business.

Then I thought of writing about how my previous owner was totally unfair to us and was acting like a total bitch..so a whole week was spent ..taking legal advice from lawyers. Did you know that a 50 rupees stamp paper holds no good. Actually none of the stamp papers hold any good .. since the 40000 worth of transaction is gonna take 4 years to settle anyway. And trust me lawyers don't come cheap. Finally I handled this situation... boy ..if I'd let my roommate talk to the landlady all you could hear is $!@#$*&%..and you wish you had a hearing problem.

Weird things have been happening around me. Some I don't understand ... some I understand but I'm acting dumb and some are just there... right in my face..jolting me back to reality. So.. how hard do you need to be pinched to make you SEE. ... hard, really really hard. Lets just say there is this dark cloud that got me wet .. totally drenched ... and then the next minute there was not a single drop of water .. huh.. no analogies .. this actually happened. :) You don't know if you should be happy that the dark cloud has passed by ..or felt foolish that you didn't wait for the rain to stop. Coming to bigger crisis in my life ..

So .. then thought of writing about stuff that I thought would never happen to me. It didn't... but it happened to her. A very emotional period I say .. one of things that made me realise that the world around me is not perfect. The happy faces you see everyday have so much history ... You would never know ..and be glad you don't. I wish I knew how she felt .. things she thought .. things she wanted to say but she didn't. I have never been so broken as I was that day.

I thought of blogging about losing a dear friend .. but trust me its not worth it. I would have thought it was but I'm just too angry and confused right now. I just don't get it .. but I know I am not wrong .. I'm just possessive. :) Well ... then I thought I would at least write an useless entry just for the heck of it .. but I can proudly say "You see.. I'm on call.. I don't have much time". I am loving it .. the responsibility .. the expectations.. the time lines ..basically da work.

Today I tripped .. missed a step and hit badly.. dropped the God's prasad on the floor. It was all down .. was it a sign that things I asked for ..aren't gonna happen .. or was it like a punishment for my sins.. or may be a reminder to wake up and smell the heat ... the world is no more a safe place and I don't think it ever was... it's just waiting to rip you off.

p.s. loving the weather here .... havent switched ON the fan since three days. Well, I really wish I had something to blog about.

Not so happening,

me